Daily Comments; Day4

-- Day 4 - Nov28 - 117 lbs - WTFFFF ! I lasted ALL DAY ! &then all of a sudden its like 8 or 9 at night. and i start BINGING ?! UGGHHH ! i feel like a fucking fatt ass ! everytime i walk i can feel my body JIGGLE! Im not doing this anymore ! I can't STAND not eating all day and then all of a sudden eat last minute, and totally ruin everything! IM NOT EATING!
i want to be THIN. where you can see my hip bone again, and my collar bone, and my ribs, and less of this UGLY FATTT !

DailyComments; Day3

-- Day 3 - Nov28 - 117 lbs - Well.. I'm hoping today will go better than yesterday did. I don't have to deal with her making a big meal or anything for at least a week now! I decided Im going to make a goal weight, and number of pounds i want to lose every day.
Today Im hoping i can drink LOTS of water & get rid of all my water weight.

In the next few days im going to try and get rid of all that nasty stuff in your body that make you weigh more. Like.. all the food left in my bowel system, all the water weight, everything i can think of im going to try and get rid of!
I cant wait !

Much Love.
♥
-xxx

DailyComments; Day2 - 2

-- Day 2 - Nov27 - 118 lbs -

Well this morning i ended up becoming busy, and I could not come back on and write another note before i left for school. But, i was doing SO good today! I did not eat all morning, or at lunch! & in the morning, the teacher offered me cupcakes, cause they were handing them out to the class, &i said no. i couldnt believe it when i did it !
i said no. i never do that ! if someone offers me something , i usually give in and end up eating whatever is being offered. but not today.. today, i showed strength and showed myself that i actually CAN do this. If i set my mind to something, i can accomplish my goal. No matter how big or how little my goal is. the sad thing is, i had put down the cupcake, and i had been hungry all day.. &then after my mom picked me up she told me she wasn't working, and we were going to eat out toniight. She got the 15 piece chicken meal special thing from KFC. I was SO angry !

I wanted to be able to just tell my mom some dumb excuse like my stomach had been hurting all day or something ? But.. of coarse when i decide to begin to lose weight, and actually follow through with not eating, she decides she has to get all these meals she KNOWS i love, and it would be weird if i didnt eat the meals. &she gets mad when I don't eat when she gets take out.

BUUtt .. I did find something out ..
My mom told me that she is working everyday this week starting tomorrow. &she works her 3-11 night shift. Which means she won't be home for dinner or to be able to see what im eating or not eating. It will be SO much easier !

So.. alriight, i did eat tonight, Im not going to lie..
I ate an entire meal, probably even more than what i should have. But, i thought that it would probably be my last Binge in awhile, so i figured i would go out with a Bang.
I know i said that I would start my lyttbaatt Diet yesterday.. but.. after this whole big Binge I had toniight.. and finding out that tomo my mom will actually be at work,
im thinking it would be best if i just Officially Began my Lyttbaatt Diet tomorrow.


I'm sick of being FAT ! I want to be the skinny Girl again ! I hate being big !
I hate the feeling of my stomach feeling like its about to burst !

I hate it ! I hate it ! I hate it !

aanyways , im going to go watch a movie for my homework .
Im going to try and post in the morning again .
Im hoping maybe I can continue to keep this up and post every morning when i wake
up & every evening before i go to bed.

anyways ,
Much Love.
♥
- xxx

DailyComments : Day2

-- Day 2 - Nov27 - 118 lbs - So I tried to set my alarm earlier to wake up, and that deffinately did NOT work out very well. I'm way toooooo tired at the moment.
Im going to go back to bed for a little while I think.
But I just weighed myself, & I'm a pound lighter !!! :D
I'm pumped only 2O more pounds! WOOOTTT !
&i WAS right ! Having this blogging thing that i can type up quick thoughts
and keep a place organized and all written down , knowing everything that is going on,
and being able to look at the past of what has happened is motivating me.
Cause now i feel like i'm not keeping it just to myself.
&Im not alone. I can express how i feel &how everything is going.

anyways , i will post again before i go to school hopefully.

I'm going to go get some more shut eye ! :)

Much Love.
♥
- xxx

DailyComments; Day 1

-- Day 1 - Nov26 - 119 lbs - alright, well.. I have just finished creating the basic things on my blog. i have created a body weight status to keep an update of my weight, how much i have lost, and how much i still need to lose each day. Tomorrow i am going to begin not eating anything.
I was beginning to keep to my promise and lose weight,
& i was doing good for a few days, & my mom had made up some ribs. Unfortunately she knows that is one of my favourite meals, & she would have suspected something, or thought I was upset if i didn't eat, & would be aaaaall over me !
so i avoided the hassle & ate with the fam.

I'm hoping this will help me ,
keep things organized and keep to my word.

Im going to wake up extra early in the morning to type up another comment. Im going to try and comment as much as possible & give as much feed back as i can.

Much Love.
♥
-xxx