-- Day 14- Dec9 - 118 lbs - I miss talking to all of you ! Every day i always think about coming on here and writing another post, and writing to all of you and trying to see how you are all doing, if you are reaching your goals or not, but i have just been SO busy !
But here is a little update for everyone :)
I have now gained some of my weight back, i am back up to 118 lbs, buuuut .. i went to the weight room at school yesterday after school. I ended up having 5 guys helping me out by the time i was done, which i always love ;) haha , they were working me hard though ! & i told them i wanted to get muscles fast , and start working out hard core, so they started pushing me like craaaaaazzy ! I loved it though , haha .. what girl wouldn't ?
& although a ate a few things today ..
I had a slice of pizza from the school cafe, i had a whole grain bar at work, an apple, a bowl of fruits (pineapple, grapes, etc..), and two shishkabobs, but.. alriight.. so i gave into a couple of the goodies at work , but i only ate one and ended up throwing almost the entire other one out. so .. i didn't eat TOO much , but i did unfortunately eat a little bit.
What else can i tell you ? mmm..
i didn't end up going to that girls night, i just ended up staying in all night with my brother and chilled with him. which i always LOVE DOING ! & on friday i brought this REALLY cute guy that i have been talking to lately to my best friends boi friends house.
So .. i had a pretty good weekend.
OHH !
BIG NEWS!
--Read this part on if you want to hear read a long boi story--
I was involved with this boi , lets call him ....
Travis .
Me and travis were involved all summer and for a while after, and all in all we were together for a good four months,
things have happened in those 4 months that complicates a few things,
but we ended up splitting up sometime in august, and we got back together a couple weeks later cause i went out west for 2 weeks, and when i got back we missed each other so much .. we HAD to be together !
we weren't ever DATING , but we were seeing each other.
he wanted to be with me after a couple weeks of seeing each other,
& i wanted to give it more time..
but.. he didn't want to .
but.. when it came down to the time when i was ready & wanted to be with HIM,
he didn't want to be. < /3
But there is one thing you have to know about me ..
I DONT DATE !
i have only ever had ONE boifriend in my life, we will call him mike.
Me and mike Dated for 6 months, and he meant the WORLD too me, & i didn't get over him until Travis came along.
I have NEVER said "i love you" to a boi, nor will i ever, & when a boi says
it to me, i FREAK OUT! travis has never said it to me , cause i freaked out on him one time when he was joking around saying "don't worry i still love you" even THAT bothers me, & he knows it. but.. i found out last week that he told my friend in the summer that he loved me ?
Which kind of scares me ! :| Cause any time i hear the word love from a guy, i RUN !
But .. anyways , he ended up not wanting to be with me, like dating, so i tried to give it time, & then after awhile, i was sick of giving it time, & i had finally talked to him & i asked him if i was just wasting my time, or will there ever actually be a chance for us ? & he was like honestly ? I think I want to be single for a bit .
So .. i was like alriight , I tried to do the whole friend thing, & it didn't work out too well , I couldn't handle always hanging out with him & seeing other girls around him & sitting on his lap & flirting with him at parties & stuff, so i told him it hurt to go through all that & he told me he thought it would be better to not hang out for a bit. So .. i ended up deleting him off facebook & Msn , cause it was too hard to see his name all the time when I had started to try & get over him . So .. I stopped talking to him. Which is WEIRD for us . Cause from the beginning of the summer we have been inseparable. We have been together every single day , pretty much any chance we could get. We would always be texting, & talking, & msging each other. Even when he was having a party , he went up stairs while his buddies watched the party & he was on the phone with me. So.. when we aren't talking, its strange. We had not talked for a month now. & Not too long ago .. he msged me an inbox on facebook, & he asked why I had deleted him as a friend off of facebook (I guess he had went to go on my facebook and he couldn't see my profile ). So i told him i thought it would be a good idea cause he had said he thought it would be better not to hang out for a while , & he was like .. i Didn't mean for us not to be friends anymore.
& long story short i ended up telling him that it hurt too much to be "just friends." So .. Now that we are all up to date.
I haven't talked to Travis for about a month now. Last night I text him after thinking about him for days & days, & i said "I miss you." He text me back saying likewise. I was like can we hang out soon pleasE ? he's like asap . im like when are you not busy ? hes like i dunno ?
im like tell me when & where & i'll be there, he's like I dunno I don't really make plans, Miichelle you know that. i was like i know , but with me you do . Im like what are you doing tomo ? Lets hang out before I have to work , hes like alriight.
So .. we FINALLY got to hang out today !
I was SO EXCITED all day ! i was pumped ! & i was in suuuuuch a Good mood all dayy !
& We finally got to hang out, &i was SO happy !
I missed him soooo much ! He's honestly such an important person in my life !
He means so much to me, & i felt lost when we weren't talking . :(
but now we are, & he told me to text him toniight after work , &..
What ended up happening was i tried phoning him but there was no answer,
& he tried texting me but my phone was dead .
& i was going to invite him over to come hang out too ! we were texting each other for about half an hour, &.. im just SO overly ecstatic that we are talking and stuff again . I dunno what's going to go on between us. But.. im just letting things play out, & do their own thing; Not try & think about it too much .
Im just soo happy it's me & Travis back again !
I can't wait to start going to parties & stuff with him again. But everyone is going to start thinking we are back together when we arrive together .
UGHH Dumb .
Whatever. Im Happy. :)
Anyways , sorry ladies, i thought you would like to hear and get all up dated on my one boi situation.
But.. i would love to keep typing but i need to go to bed soooon .
Im tired.
I'm going to try & post another in the morning when i wake up ..
If i have time , either that or hopefully before work tomo .
Anyways ,
GoodLuck Ladies.
MuchLove.
♥
-xxx
alriight.. so, I'm not going to refer to myself by my real name, so im going to go by a name that I have always loved ..
Miichelle.
Im new to this whole Blog thing, but.. I want to keep a place that I can keep my thoughts and everything, and perhaps get some insight from other people, while knowing that my secrets are secure.
I'm hoping that I will be able to come on here to blog at least 3 times a week.. I just know that my life can become VERY busy at times. Hopefully I can own up or maybe even do more then I said I would.
**I just want to note, that this blog is old. I have not visited it in awhile. I have no come on, as I had gotten happy with my weight & my appearance. I have realized in the last couple of weeks though, that I am HUGE
I am starting over! I am going to get to what I want to be, I am GOING TO BE HAPPY with what I look like, and I KNOW it is GOING TO BE HARD! Very, VERY hard!
Please everyone try and help me out as much as possibly ?
Miichelle.
Im new to this whole Blog thing, but.. I want to keep a place that I can keep my thoughts and everything, and perhaps get some insight from other people, while knowing that my secrets are secure.
I'm hoping that I will be able to come on here to blog at least 3 times a week.. I just know that my life can become VERY busy at times. Hopefully I can own up or maybe even do more then I said I would.
**I just want to note, that this blog is old. I have not visited it in awhile. I have no come on, as I had gotten happy with my weight & my appearance. I have realized in the last couple of weeks though, that I am HUGE
I am starting over! I am going to get to what I want to be, I am GOING TO BE HAPPY with what I look like, and I KNOW it is GOING TO BE HARD! Very, VERY hard!
Please everyone try and help me out as much as possibly ?
To-Do List ;
-- Edit WEIGHT LOSS HISTORY .
-- Update Pictures on other Blog .
* Current pictures. {Ewwww !}
-- Drink at least 6-7 bottles of water / Day .
-- Write blog as much as Possible .
By starting a Blog I want to do accomplish a few things i have been trying to do for awhile now.
Think Again
I have a secret .
& I would like to share it with all my Followers .
My secret is what I have lived by for the last week.
This is what has helped me & kept me on track .
This one thing is always on my mind, always in my head .
& it's the one thing that always stops me right before I have
that bite of food..
It is what helped me lose the 4 lbs and what has kept me motivated, & will help me lose 17 lbs more until i get to my Goal.
My Secret ?
Think about it..
All that food? That Glorious Delicious food that you are always
craving but can never have ? Those days when you go to binge, & you can't help yourself..
It just looks too irresistible! You have to have it!
Just think ..
How old are you now ? Most of my followers are in there teens or twenties . Which means you STILL have lots of time to live!
Just think..
If you avoid eating all that junk, and you wait.
Just wait a little while longer.
You can get to your goal quicker! Control yourself!
YOU CAN DO IT!
& When your done ? After controlling yourself ?
& Not being able to eat all those goodies ?
When your down to your GoalWeight, & You look hotter
than ever ?
You will have years and years and years to eat all that food.
Whats going to happen ?
Before you get to your goal weight all the good junkie food
that you are dieing to eat is going to expire and all the manufacturers are going to stop the production of ALL THOSE FOODS ?
Think again . .
**DONT take that one bite that will ruin your Food-Free Day.
Keep the streak.
Think again . .
& I would like to share it with all my Followers .
My secret is what I have lived by for the last week.
This is what has helped me & kept me on track .
This one thing is always on my mind, always in my head .
& it's the one thing that always stops me right before I have
that bite of food..
It is what helped me lose the 4 lbs and what has kept me motivated, & will help me lose 17 lbs more until i get to my Goal.
My Secret ?
It will always be there for you.
Think about it..
All that food? That Glorious Delicious food that you are always
craving but can never have ? Those days when you go to binge, & you can't help yourself..
It just looks too irresistible! You have to have it!
Just think ..
It will always be there for you.
How old are you now ? Most of my followers are in there teens or twenties . Which means you STILL have lots of time to live!
Just think..
If you avoid eating all that junk, and you wait.
Just wait a little while longer.
You can get to your goal quicker! Control yourself!
YOU CAN DO IT!
& When your done ? After controlling yourself ?
& Not being able to eat all those goodies ?
When your down to your GoalWeight, & You look hotter
than ever ?
You will have years and years and years to eat all that food.
It will always be there for you!
Whats going to happen ?
Before you get to your goal weight all the good junkie food
that you are dieing to eat is going to expire and all the manufacturers are going to stop the production of ALL THOSE FOODS ?
Think again . .
It will always be there for you.
**DONT take that one bite that will ruin your Food-Free Day.
Keep the streak.
Think again . .
It will always be there for you.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
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2 comments:
I am glad that you are happy! Boys can be confusing, and I love you's are definitely scary. I have had my heartbroken one to many times. At least you are careful. I hope things go well, and I'm glad to hear you are working out! I really need to do that today. Even though you miss some days on here don't forget that you can do it, and that even though we don't talk inbetween the support is always there!
-under the ivy.
i'm boy free too. can't take the love crap either. kind of the same as what you were saying about food. there'll always be boys and a time for boys but right now i havent got the time. bigger fish to fry (and then not eat)
stay strong.
a. xx
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