-- Day 9 - Dec4 - 117 lbs - Okay ladies, so im not going to lie to you.. I feel like I have failed! entirely :|! I feel like a gave in. All I did last night was binge binge binge binge binge ! WTF am i doing ? I feel like all my hard work of not eating and getting smaller and thinner, and all that hard work paying off just went to a complete and total WASTE ! I'm now BACK UP to 117 lbs ! can you believe that ?
like.. are you kidding me?
I was doing soo good ! :|
Im reading all of your blogs, and seeing how much weight you are all losing , you are all so strong, you don't give in, and your getting closer and closer to your goals,
and here I am GAINING my weight back .
So .. ive made a decision..
Tonight if i end up eating at all it doesn't matter.
Today is already fucked up . If i mess it up a little bit more, how much more damage can it really do ?
I'm going to chug a couple of waters back , maybe drink some tea ?
&in the morning im going to load my bag up with water bottles, so i can keep myself drinking throughout the entire day at school. Im going to bring tea bags to school with my thermos and make some tea in the morning&on my lunch. It will keep my stomach warm and not feel so empty .
I don't have to work tomo , which mean i don't have to worry about giving into all the goodies at work.(i work at a place where there is ALWAYS treats around. There are always desserts like ice cream and pie and whip cream on everything, and yogourts &mousse & brownies , UGGGHHH why can i NOT HAVE ALL THAT & NOT GAIN WEIGHT! What a DREAM ! )
but then all i have is the weekend, im going to try and keep myself as busy as i possibly can !
Im going drinking on friday and i have a girls night im going to on saturday .
Maaaaan im sure there are going to be SO many junky things on saturday , & i cant just not eat ?
There going to think something is up ..
or maybe i can just MAKE IT LOOK like I am eating all night ?
ughh mann iunno ?
Maybe i just won't eat and tell them my stomach has just not been agreeing with food all day or something ?
aanyways ladies, i need to get going & do some homework and things .
I have an entire to do list i need to get going on & i haven't even
started & it's getting pretty late .
I think im going to add a tip of the day up tonight .
if not than within the next couple of days ..
So keep your eye out .
I have also created an Msn.
So perhaps I can talk to some of you ?
I don't know how many of you are actually going to add me ..
But I will be online Toniight ..
& even if you don't add me on msn ..
I'll be checking for emails ..:)
Just let me know who you are .
and what your Blog is..
otherwise it may get a little confusing .
Im going to bedd now though ..
GoodLuck to you all.
I hope everyone is getting closer & closer
to their Goals .
MuchLove.
♥
-xxx
alriight.. so, I'm not going to refer to myself by my real name, so im going to go by a name that I have always loved ..
Miichelle.
Im new to this whole Blog thing, but.. I want to keep a place that I can keep my thoughts and everything, and perhaps get some insight from other people, while knowing that my secrets are secure.
I'm hoping that I will be able to come on here to blog at least 3 times a week.. I just know that my life can become VERY busy at times. Hopefully I can own up or maybe even do more then I said I would.
**I just want to note, that this blog is old. I have not visited it in awhile. I have no come on, as I had gotten happy with my weight & my appearance. I have realized in the last couple of weeks though, that I am HUGE
I am starting over! I am going to get to what I want to be, I am GOING TO BE HAPPY with what I look like, and I KNOW it is GOING TO BE HARD! Very, VERY hard!
Please everyone try and help me out as much as possibly ?
Miichelle.
Im new to this whole Blog thing, but.. I want to keep a place that I can keep my thoughts and everything, and perhaps get some insight from other people, while knowing that my secrets are secure.
I'm hoping that I will be able to come on here to blog at least 3 times a week.. I just know that my life can become VERY busy at times. Hopefully I can own up or maybe even do more then I said I would.
**I just want to note, that this blog is old. I have not visited it in awhile. I have no come on, as I had gotten happy with my weight & my appearance. I have realized in the last couple of weeks though, that I am HUGE
I am starting over! I am going to get to what I want to be, I am GOING TO BE HAPPY with what I look like, and I KNOW it is GOING TO BE HARD! Very, VERY hard!
Please everyone try and help me out as much as possibly ?
To-Do List ;
-- Edit WEIGHT LOSS HISTORY .
-- Update Pictures on other Blog .
* Current pictures. {Ewwww !}
-- Drink at least 6-7 bottles of water / Day .
-- Write blog as much as Possible .
By starting a Blog I want to do accomplish a few things i have been trying to do for awhile now.
Think Again
I have a secret .
& I would like to share it with all my Followers .
My secret is what I have lived by for the last week.
This is what has helped me & kept me on track .
This one thing is always on my mind, always in my head .
& it's the one thing that always stops me right before I have
that bite of food..
It is what helped me lose the 4 lbs and what has kept me motivated, & will help me lose 17 lbs more until i get to my Goal.
My Secret ?
Think about it..
All that food? That Glorious Delicious food that you are always
craving but can never have ? Those days when you go to binge, & you can't help yourself..
It just looks too irresistible! You have to have it!
Just think ..
How old are you now ? Most of my followers are in there teens or twenties . Which means you STILL have lots of time to live!
Just think..
If you avoid eating all that junk, and you wait.
Just wait a little while longer.
You can get to your goal quicker! Control yourself!
YOU CAN DO IT!
& When your done ? After controlling yourself ?
& Not being able to eat all those goodies ?
When your down to your GoalWeight, & You look hotter
than ever ?
You will have years and years and years to eat all that food.
Whats going to happen ?
Before you get to your goal weight all the good junkie food
that you are dieing to eat is going to expire and all the manufacturers are going to stop the production of ALL THOSE FOODS ?
Think again . .
**DONT take that one bite that will ruin your Food-Free Day.
Keep the streak.
Think again . .
& I would like to share it with all my Followers .
My secret is what I have lived by for the last week.
This is what has helped me & kept me on track .
This one thing is always on my mind, always in my head .
& it's the one thing that always stops me right before I have
that bite of food..
It is what helped me lose the 4 lbs and what has kept me motivated, & will help me lose 17 lbs more until i get to my Goal.
My Secret ?
It will always be there for you.
Think about it..
All that food? That Glorious Delicious food that you are always
craving but can never have ? Those days when you go to binge, & you can't help yourself..
It just looks too irresistible! You have to have it!
Just think ..
It will always be there for you.
How old are you now ? Most of my followers are in there teens or twenties . Which means you STILL have lots of time to live!
Just think..
If you avoid eating all that junk, and you wait.
Just wait a little while longer.
You can get to your goal quicker! Control yourself!
YOU CAN DO IT!
& When your done ? After controlling yourself ?
& Not being able to eat all those goodies ?
When your down to your GoalWeight, & You look hotter
than ever ?
You will have years and years and years to eat all that food.
It will always be there for you!
Whats going to happen ?
Before you get to your goal weight all the good junkie food
that you are dieing to eat is going to expire and all the manufacturers are going to stop the production of ALL THOSE FOODS ?
Think again . .
It will always be there for you.
**DONT take that one bite that will ruin your Food-Free Day.
Keep the streak.
Think again . .
It will always be there for you.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
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2 comments:
hey im sorry to hear about your binge. but we've all been there, and you can get right back on track. tomorrow is a new day.
i guess i would just make an excuse about why you dont want to eat, it's hard with temptations around, I work around a lot of baked goods too and its really hard. I just chug a bunch of water in the day.
its so much harder when i go out and see people. i find my best results when i am just going to school then coming home.
it will be fine, I believe in you and you will be able to lose the weight! everyone has slip ups. it can be reversed though! good luck
and i will definitely add you on msn.
<3 -under the ivy.
Hey, you're still lighter than me!
And my comp is already so fucked up that I can't afford to download anything like msn. But I will be home tonight so I'm ready for my final tomorrow and I made an account on that chat box on your page so... keep that in mind! ha ha mk girly water = GOD so good plan!
xo Hana
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